As I lay my head on your chest, I can't help but feel that this is where I am supposed to be. I look up at you and you look down at me. You say, "What?" and I say, "Nothing" and turn my head. You gently kiss my forehead. 6 months have passed since you have laid in my bed and it feels like there hasn't been any time lost. I tread lightly to your, "I want things to go back to normal". I don't know what to do. I am scared to run you away again but I can't help but be myself. I will be honest, I have fallen for you. With you, everything is so genuine, so light and so free. You give me all that I am missing and wanting until you leave and everything seems like it never happened. You go about your day as if I don't exist and I spend all day thinking about you. We were never together, that I know but I can't help but think what our future would be like. I see you with your "kids" and my mind races to the thought of how such a wonderful father you would be. I see the time you spend with your family and my thoughts are consumed with how our family would be and the traditions we would start together. I never knew how much I wanted kids and a family until I met you.
I don't know what more I can say.... Now, my favorite thing to do is to be around you. No matter what is going on or what we may be doing, I just like to be in your presence. I don't know how this happened or why this happened because I am back to missing you again. We no longer talk and I am back to being a memory of what you used to do.
I don't know why we met. I don't know why I felt the connection I did. I don't know why we just couldn't want the same things or why I just can't get over you. The more time passes, the harder it is for me. The more I wish I could just have back the moments that made me feel like it all made sense. Can we just rewind, back up the hands of time and go back to where you and I were, you and I?
Til the next time,
Peaches Jones
